Some Days are for Staring Out the Window

My passion for filmmaking eventually drifted into a long pause, perhaps a casualty of the quiet, languishing moments of 2020 and 2021. In that stillness, the only spark I had left was a sudden, urgent need to make art.

Stepping away from the digital world to work with my hands became a profound form of meditation. It allowed the negative thoughts that had crowded my mind to simply fade, replaced by a singular focus on the art itself. For the first time, there were no clients, no deadlines, and no glowing screens—just a raw release of pictures, colors, and words.

I began to sift through recycled magazines and the weathered pages of old books, cutting out fragments that spoke to me. I layered them over whatever colors mirrored my mood that day, experimenting with acrylic inks, pencils, and whatever supplies I found laying around. I lost myself in the scribbling and the rhythmic dribble of paint, barely noticing the hours as they slipped by.

Layer upon layer, I followed a purely intuitive flow. What began as a creative mess slowly transformed into a series of pieces, each one telling its own story. These images appeared without planning or expectation. Is it any good? Is it pretty enough? Is this even art? Eventually, those questions stopped mattering. All that mattered was how it made me feel. I suppose that is the essence of art therapy: finding the healing within the mess.

So, here is where the next chapter begins. Even now, I am not entirely sure where this path is leading, but I have stepped away from the video business I built over the past decade to make room for something new. I am choosing to brave that uncertainty—to lean into the unknown and share it here with you, one story at a time.

My Learnings: If you are looking for a way back to your creative self, collage is a beautiful place to begin. There is something profoundly freeing in the simple act of tearing up paper and moving elements around; it is a gentle entry point that requires no perfection. It is a way to get the hands, the head, and the heart moving in unison again.